February, 20th, 2005 Sunday(11:35pm....)

today seems like the longest day of my life. my memories, thoughts and decisions keep gushing into my head. i struggled to breathe. yesterday seems like the direct opposite of today. i guess happy times is just like being caught by the wind, it flows away so fast. i really appreciate what is being brought to me. i dont know. its kinda weird. the feeling is weird but, i think i heard my heart talking. the feeling is weird but yet so soothing. everything seems to fall in place for me. don't ask why. i just felt so.
alright. i had one of the best day in my life with this girl called jacey. i couldn't believe it. she is, if not much more crappier than me. one of the 'attitude rules' ladies. i had met my match. i totally loose out on the mouth work. i've lost. i felt lost. i was bullied. yeah literally bullied. believe it. smack me awake. i don't know why. but i'm really looking forward to date her again. or is it to see her again? search my soul.