April, 18th, 2005 Monday

Now, I don't understand what I'm going through, so many struggling moments, so many decisions to make, so much hurt, so heart wrecking, so poignant, so many thoughts going through my mind, so many sleepless nights. And why am I so disgruntled? I don't have an exact answer. But one thing I know for sure is that, I must pull through this toughest stage of my life, and if in the end I'm the one with her. I'll take every chance. because....I've fallen in too deep.