September, 1st, 2005 Thursday(1:18am....)

fwahhh....time really flies, its a new month again. lets all pray that it'll be a good one. did something today that i think for the first time in maybe 5yrs? or maybe 10? in the hot, scorching, head busting sunny afternoon, i found myself sitting quietly in a corner of the library reading and jotting downs important notes and formulaes on engineering mechanics. insane? yeah. couldn't believe myself either, i was actually behaving like a studious student seriously flipping those pages and looking through every single damn formula. i tell you, damn it, thats actually more taxing then supersetting deadlifts with squats. I'm sorta brain-dead after the 4hrs in the library. while i was taking a breather in between, some thoughts popped up. this year, this year alone, alot of changes and experiences i experienced like no other. i think being 25 really means something. you are inbetween, you need to decide, you need to learn and learn things the hard way. i've got my licence this year, got into a relationship this year, got screwed big time at work this year, never get promotion this year, resigned this year, found a terrific job(hopefully so!) this year, got into shit loeads of debts this year, kept my hair long this year, and shitloads more....
so, i think something big is going to happen...i don't know, but i just felt so, and something tells me its gonna be good.
there was once a wise person told me; ' hey lad, don't look so depressed. believe something. if you sufferred when you are young, you will be rewarded when you aged and old. bad luck won't follow you forever, have a taste of bitter first and you'll like the taste of sweetness.'