April, 16th, 2006 Sunday

Its a sunday, and i guess it isn't that sunny afterall. its pouring like mad outside now. heaven sorta knew how i felt, and feel the same as i do, i guess.... still thinking it must have been a real bad dream, but, here i stand, right in the face of reality and i gotta be 10times stronger than i used to be, i guess...

But just maybe, this is the path i have to go through in my life, and there might be more obstacles and heartbreaks to come, i don't know... but if the guy up there wants me to go through all these because he thinks i should, i'll say, : 'so be it'. and maybe, : 'bring it on' or just maybe one day when i had enough, : 'screw you'.
running through the songs i had in my machine, i came across and played the number by Tony Rich, its called Nobody Knows. and it blends so well with how i feel and the rain outside the window now.... it goes something like...

I carry a smile when I'm broken in two
Now I'm nobody without someone like you
I'm tremblin' inside, and nobody knows it but me
I lie awake, its a quarter past three
I'm screamin' at night
As if I thought you'd hear me
My heart is callin' you
And nobody knows it but me
How blue can I get
You could ask my heart
But like a jigsaw puzzle its been torn all apart
A million words couldn't say just how I feel
A million years from now you know I'll be lovin' you still
The nights are lonely
The days are so sad
And I just keep thinkin' about
The love that we had
And I'm missin' you
And nobody knows it but me......