August, 3rd, 2004 Tuesday(12:24am...)

Damn, all the hard work and all I get is a miserable 100dollars increment and a 1/2 month bonus? do i have to stoop so low and flush my pride down the pipe to accept that as a fact? hell no! and he know from that moment a threw the fucking increment letter right back to him. what about those posers who only know how to act busy and get over 1K of increment? does working overtime means he is busy and not working overtime means i'm free? hell no! a productive worker need not work OT like mad! fuck it, just fuck it, all my hard work is only worth a hundred bucks to that mother fucker, that worthtless son of the bitch, that asshole with no self esteem and self respect...
the more i think of it, the more my blood boils and the more hungry i'm to taste his blood.
to me now, if my work is not appreciated so be it, from this damn day onwards, my heart is dead for this company, no more whole hearted work, until i manage to find a better job. and i will find one from today onwards!
my heart really sank, really sank, whats the point of working so hard? recognition? bonus? increment? prospect? I find none here...send me some signs god, if there are any...