June, 30th, 2004 Wednesday(12:05am....)

Bad day at office...sucks
Back day at gym....su...superb!!
deadlifts really make my back dead now... now i know why its called the 'deadlift'. it leaves you dead after doing it....

June, 28th, 2004 Monday(11:05pm....)

FREAKING FREAKING FREAKING busy day at work!!!!AHHHHHHHH!!!! that really add fuel to the firey monday blues.... the urge of collapsing in office is damn strong!!!arggghhh....
those stupid projects just keep coming in and those moronic sales managers just don't give a damn whether there is enough time for those projects! they just don't give a damn... all they know is to earn earn earn and earn... if i were god, they have been already damned to hell!!! burn their balls!! bastardos, mudder fuggers, S.O.Bs.... whatever bad thing you call them, they are....
went to the gym for a full chest blast! boy, it just feels great!! its been a long while since my pecs had such punishment... heavy bench, high rep dumbell incline presses, flyes, machine presses, smith presses to the throat and close grip bench presses, i think my pecs and tri's are gonna pop!
oh wait! i forgotten my last protein shake of the day...

June, 27th, 2004 Sunday(3:03pm....)

meet up with my buddies last nite for a dinner at changi...wooohooo... had a promfret steamboat, and chilli crabs with deep fried buns!!!! haven't had that for ages!! no doubt i felt a little guilty and a little sinful eating all that oil, carbs, and high cholestrol shit, but man... i think i just have to take a break from my low gycemic carbs, high protein, bland tasteless food... if not i would go nuts!
went ktv at loyang, not a bad place to sing... really enjoyed ourselves last nite...till 2am!
got back home and started watching holland vs sweden... good match, tough match. but the swedish were just outta luck...
woke up 12 today, not feeling really tired cos really slept alot yesterday afternoon...hahahah...
will be heading to gym for my legs in an hour's time... going to sis house for dinner!!!

June, 26th, 2004 Saturday(12am....)

man... i overslept this morning again...had to take a cab to work.. but still late for 15mins... was feeling too tired these past two days and kept on over sleeping... must not happen on monday again!
wasn't really busy had work, few projects to clear only...
pumped my biceps at gym... i hit them so damn hard that i couln't really straighten them now... feels great!! its been a long while that my arms had been so sore...
its weekend again... should be resting well and meeting my friends!

June, 24th, 2004 Thursday(12am....)

got quite a few negative comments on being a personal trainer and california fitness centre...hmmm... some say its competitive and some say its sales orientated.... maybe i should reconsider on giving up my present job?? not unless they give me a pay increment!!!
or maybe i shouldn't worry so much and hinders myself from broadening my horizon... this is me, sometimes, i just hate it. worry too much. think too much. plan too much. i've already told myself, go have a try, if you don't like that way of life, turn back and be a design engineer again. i'm still young, still need experience, still have many more things in life to experience.
ok ok ok ok enough of thinking, Mr Brain needs a rest too.
pumped my shoulders today, hmmm... feeling tired... had a quick but intense workout and got myself outta the gym, don't wanna overtrain...
bought myself a timberland tee while on the way back home. nice design but not the colour i wanted, but anyway, it looks cool on me at least.hhahaaha.

June, 23rd, 2004 Wednesday(9am.....)

seems quite free this morning, hvn't start work from 0830 till now... just surfing the net...
i hv been playing this song day after day, i could play it forever...my fav song;

And I'd give up forever to touch you
Cuz I know that you feel me somehow
You're the closest to heaven that I'll ever be
And I don't want to go home right now

And all I can taste is this moment
And all I can breathe is your life
Cuz sooner or later it's over
I just don't want to miss you tonight

And I don't want the world to see me
Cuz I don't think that they'd understand
When everything's made to be broken
I just want you to know who I am

And you can't fight the tears that ain't coming
Or the moment of truth in your lies
When everything feels like the movies
Yeah, you'd bleed just to know you're alive

And I don't want the world to see me
Cuz I don't think that they'd understand
When everything's made to be broken
I just want you to know who I am

And I don't want the world to see me
Cuz I don't think that they'd understand
When everything's made to be broken
I just want you to know who I am

And I don't want the world to see me
Cuz I don't think that they'd understand
When everything's made to be broken
I just want you to know who I am

I just want you to know who I am
I just want you to know who I am
I just want you to know who I am

Know wat song is that?

June, 22nd, 2004 Tuesday

not a bad day for me... not a busy day at work, just some designs to finish off... feeling quite pissed by the newly employed senior engineer while guiding him in simple designs, yes, i'll say it again, I GUIDE HIM?!?!?! i'm only a junior and me teaching a senior engineer how to go about doing work the correct way, its not that i wanna complain, but, he should at least know how to use AutoCAD? Oh yes, AutoCAD means Computer Aided Drafting. crazy rite? my company actually employ someone with minimum CAD knowledge as a senior engineer?? then at least my pay must be higher than his inorder to teach him things! well, bosses are IDIOTS, what to do??
reach gym at seven, gear up and ready to pump some iron!!
did the crazy chest and back supersets today and holy shit! i'm pump till now, which is 3hrs after my workout... but i like it..hahahahahahah
thermo stack really work well man, i see myself getting more cut, gotta let george know abt this stuff, bet he'll like it.
went for dinner with kangming at tampines mall food court to have some beef soup, no vemicelli!!only beef, beef, beef and more beef!!!!!
italy plays again tonite, or rather, tomorrow morning, gotta work, so can't watch..sianz..

June, 21st, Monday 2004

same old monday blues today.... i'm not the only one, evryone in the office looked super tired and some even doze off facing their pc... i had to walk about to keep myself awake...crap...
today's shoulder's day...so i drag my tired ass to the gym and work my butt off on the delts and traps.. boy, its really intense..if not they won't be burning now while i'm typing this... and guess who i saw?? my eldest cousin whom i hated the most... i don't really hate people or keep that hatred for a long time, but this asshole is different!he is the most annoying, irritating, egoistic, stingy fucker i've ever met. all he know is to show off his possession and talk big... i really tried very hard to hide away from his view, but due to my size, he spotted me easily.. now, thats the negative side of being big sized.... came up to me and talk crap as usual, told him i had to continue with my workout, and had no time to crap around with him and i just walked away.. irritating guy, kept staring at me doing every rep, every set... felt like eating him for breakfast!
bought some fish and mushrooms from the supermarket after gym for my dinner... reach home 2130, damn tired, still, i must wash clothes, clean the fish, prepare my dinner and breakfast and small meals for tommorow!
sat down, had my dinner and then i found out that theres a layer of oil on the water of my arowana's tank!shit! changed the water, washed the filtration media..blah blah blah...
super tired man......... I WANT TO SLEEP!!!!!

June, 20th, 2004 Sunday

well, another sunday ending and tomorrow's MONDAY!!! AHHHHH!!! Gotta work again...feeling damn shitty manz....5 more days to go..............
fuah...last two days,never in my life did i do so much house work before... do the laundry, boil the water, iron the clothes and mop the floor... really, living alone and taking care of everything ain't easy at all...missing mum badly now...kekeke..
went to gym in the late afternoon today to pump my legs...gosh... aching quite badly now.. don't know how bad would it be tomorrow man... but, not bad, managed to squat 2 1/2 plates for good 10reps today, not too deep, but 3/4, feels better than doing the half squats. almost cried on the legs extension station... too pain..too much pain... but i was laughing inside..psycho eh?? too much pain to handle cos i superset it with squats...now i start to know why some of my training buddies say i'm nuts in the gym.. cos i like the pain too much!!
the Thermo stack works well, was sweating straight after 1 warm up set... amazing!
met Aries, Kangming and Joyce for dinner at Fish & Co. Its sort of a 'birthday dinner' with me cos i'm turning 24 today....
got a zippo from Aries as my birhtday present, cool! always wanted one.
got a sms from my buddy saying next weekend would be going for a dinner(AGAIN?!?!)to kinda celebrate hoe yong and my birthday...well, wat more could i say but agree?they're my brothers man! no choice but to push khamsani's coffee session to the afternoon...
feeling tired now, in fact, i'm tired everynite after the intense workout sessions at the gym everynite. no regrets, i chose it, i like it, and i workout harder than any other bodybuilder wannabes in my gym!!

June, 19th, 2004 Saturday

Just watch only 1st half of Italy vs Sweden, Euro 2004, kinda boring, Italy wasn't playing well like they should... so, decided not to waste time watching the match. bought some multi vitamins and a bottle of thermo stack by universal nutrition yesterday to burn some extra fat and hopefully get some cuts... ain't expensive, got it at 1/2 price, yeahhh....
shoulders, chest, back and arms still acing abit, but it feels good to be pumped up, i just love the pain, it means that i work that muscle group hard, goooood! not a bad day at work today, errmm ok, yesterday(friday)... quite free, finished most of my designs for fabrication, the mudder fugging manager had been quite nice lately, i think he just got his prescription from the IMH to control his crazy doings like shouting at me for nothing. i would got so pissed that i could have whoop his ass real hard, but i know i must not lose my temper, if not i'll do crazy things...and end up in 'changi chalet'. he is just not worth it.
went to gym today as usual, to pump my biceps, i love biceps day!! that thermo stack did work, sweat heaps today. switch to lighter weight and higher reps, the burn was fantastic. my polymate khamsani asked me to call him for a coffee after i'm done at the gym, but i just couldn't get thru to him, damn... called my buddy hanwei and ah pui for coffee at tampines instead... got together at our usual meeting place, a prata kopitiam, and out of nowhere, someone suggested that maybe we go for prawn fishing..hmm..evryone agrees and off we go.
well, in the midst of prawn fishing, Aries smsed me to greet me happy birthday! felt good..at least someone remembers this sunday is my birthday..haiz... getting older again.. will be meeting her for dinner on sunday evening...ha ha ha ha
got back home at around 2am. tired. and lonely, missing mum and dad already... it would be another month before they come home...haiz....
damn tired now must rest... if not muscle wouldn't grow....

June, 17th, 2004 Thursday

just came back from lunch...wasn't hungry, ate fish only... going low carbs today cos i felt fat... the sun was so damn hot, i almost melted...
another tiring, boring, busy day at office... endless designs to draft... wish i could sleep now.. not getting enuf sleep last nite...
body aching all over from tuesday's workout as a result of a week's vacation at melbourne(didn't train there at all)...gonna pump iron tonite again..hmmm... not sure whether should i do cardio to day or the chest-back superset.. felt bloated from last week's junk food eating over at mel...
felling kinda lonely over here cos mum and dad are still at mel, home alone everyday..feels kinda shitty man...boh pianz..
gotta go back to work now, sian, see bay sian...