February, 26th, 2005 Saturday(11:43pm....)

A gladiator in the arena of life. The risk taker, the warrior, the one willing to go all out and put it all on the line in pursuit of his dream. The man who takes control of his destiny, antes up and puts it all on the table, knowing that it is better to dare greatly and fail, than to play it safe and never try at all. Screw that. Life is too short and there ain't no reset button on this game... There ain't no return flight on this trip, so it is about time we step up to the plate and go for ours today, because tomorrow may never come.
There are steps to be taken to illuminate the path of success. We always need to conceive a master plan to be executed and carried out, forever progressing towards a goal just over the horizon. Laying a foundation for the house of our dreams starts with just one brick. Once you start pulling those new bricks from the pile and laying them in place, the wall grows pretty quickly. Visualize your goals, pile up those bricks, and use these tools to lay them in place. Before you know it, you'll be living large in a mansion fit for a king.
C'mon, the status quo is bullshit. It hangs around our necks every day of our lives. Society calls us to be less. It demands that we be average, cuz the less we make of ourselves, the less the rest of the world has to live up to. Who the fuck cares what the next man expects of you if it doesn't jive with your dreams? Free yourselves of the tiny, narrow-minded expectations imposed upon you and go for yours. Criticize no man but yourself. Do what it is you feel you were put on Earth to do and fuck everything else. Our time here is short, so don't waste a second of it being anything less than your best, anybody other than yourself. Do “you” until the fuckin' wheels come off...

February, 25th, 2005 Friday(9:38am....)

I finally found someone, who knocks me off my feet.
I finally found the one, who makes me feel complete...

February, 22nd, 2005 Tuesday(11:35pm....)

today was my turning point of life. welcoming another life into my life.

February, 22nd, 2005 Tuesday(10:42am....)

i feel my heart giving in to her..... i feel each and every beat of it. she's everywhere i go, she's all i know. her everything is invading me with no mercy, i had no choice but to surrender. its just so surreal. i'm concurred.

February, 20th, 2005 Sunday(11:35pm....)

today seems like the longest day of my life. my memories, thoughts and decisions keep gushing into my head. i struggled to breathe. yesterday seems like the direct opposite of today. i guess happy times is just like being caught by the wind, it flows away so fast. i really appreciate what is being brought to me. i dont know. its kinda weird. the feeling is weird but, i think i heard my heart talking. the feeling is weird but yet so soothing. everything seems to fall in place for me. don't ask why. i just felt so.
alright. i had one of the best day in my life with this girl called jacey. i couldn't believe it. she is, if not much more crappier than me. one of the 'attitude rules' ladies. i had met my match. i totally loose out on the mouth work. i've lost. i felt lost. i was bullied. yeah literally bullied. believe it. smack me awake. i don't know why. but i'm really looking forward to date her again. or is it to see her again? search my soul.

February, 20th, 2005 Sunday(10:32pm....)

i think i'm picking up the pieces. i think i'll be fine. i think i'll be strong. i think i'll be brave. there was once when my dear fren said: 'time never really heals the pain and wounds in your heart. time just toughens your heart inorder for it to withstand a larger blow'. and this meant so much to me. this sentence left me pondering whether am i strong enough to withstand the next blow.

February, 20th, 2005 Sunday(5:54pm....)

i felt like piece of rotten pie today. tons of memories flashed back, some old feelings kicked up, i don't know whats gotten into me. i completely screwed up my driving lesson. i almost got into accident. damn. i utterly suck. why am i feeling this way man. its been so damn long since i last felt the same. its like being ripped apart inside out....i'll let it burn.

February, 17th, 2005 Thursday(1:49pm....)

These quick tips will show you that you can eat your favorite junk food by the ton and still lose all the fat you want!

Tip #1 - Donuts
Eat donuts instead of solid pastries. You will be saving a tremendous number of calories by eating something with a hole in the middle. You can save upwards of 3 to 5 calories per pastry by doing this. That means if you eat 10 donuts, you've saved yourself almost 50 calories! Besides, everyone knows nuts are good for you...

Tip #2 - French Fries
French fries can help prevent heart attacks. It is a fact that French people suffer fewer heart attacks and have lower rates of heart disease. French fries are obviously from France, therefore it naturally follows that French fries can prevent heart disease.

Tip #3 - Pizza
Pizza is one of the healthiest foods on the planet. There are many reasons for this:
The bleached flour in the crust sucks up all the grease that drips down from the toppings, trapping it so you don't see it while you're eating. If you don't see it when you eat it, it has no calories.
It's round (stay with me here). Because square-shaped foods have corners, they contain a lot more calories than round foods. To save even more calories, cut a hole in the center of the pizza (refer back to #1 for full details).
The cheese on the pizza is loaded with calcium -- even more than the Tums you're going to need after eating the whole thing.
You can easily reduce your servings without sacrificing enjoyment. Instead of cutting the pizza into 8 slices, try cutting it into only 4. You've just eaten HALF the number of slices you ate before! Imagine how many calories you'll save by doing that!
Vegetables covered in grease are still vegetables. Never mind that all the nutrition has been baked out of them, you're still getting you're recommended daily servings of veggies.
There is plenty of fiber in the paper that's stuck to the bottom of the pizza. Don't be afraid of it.

Tip #4 - Beer
Beer is the absolute best beverage you can drink when you're watching your waistline. It helps to put it right out there in front you where you can see it.

Tip #5 - Air Bubbles
Look for foods that have air bubbles in them. Examples include chocolate bars, Twinkies (after you suck the cream filling out), soda pop, sponge cake, and cheese puffs. As you know, air has no calories. Look at these foods as the wrapping for a low-calorie, low-fat serving of air.

Tip #6 - Ketchup
Putting ketchup on anything makes it healthy. Think about it. You're getting your vegetables in a concentrated paste. It's like stepping into the future... today!!

Tip #7 - Zero Calories
Here are a number of delicious, zero-calorie foods you may not be aware of:
Anything eaten while standing has zero calories.
Anything eaten off somebody else's plate has zero calories.
Food sampled for "tasting" purposes during preparation has no calories.
Food sneaked from someone after you distract them is also calorie-free.
Anything eaten after the expiration date contains no calories.

Tip #8 - Ice Cream
Eating ice cream can actually help you burn an enormous amount of calories. The key to this lies in its temperature. Ice cream is very cold. When you eat ice cream, your body must expend energy (a.k.a. calories) to warm it up to your internal body temperature.
When you work through the scientific formulas for heat conversion, you can see you will end up expending approximately 6,000 calories to heat up a small dish of ice cream to body temperature. Drinking ice cold beer with your ice cream amplifies this effect.
These diet tips should have you well on your way towards effectively peeling off pounds of unsightly fat.
Think of me next time you're eating a pizza with french fries and ketchup on top, dunking your donuts in a glass of cold beer, and shoving down Twinkies (with the filling sucked out) mashed into a dish of nice cold ice cream!

Disclaimer
The preceding information is not medical advice and should not be taken as such. If you feel the urge to take any of this "information" seriously, please lie down until the feeling goes away. Thank you.

February, 16th, 2005 Wednesday(3:31pm....)

well, in the midst of doing nothing in the office, i browsed thru the web and came across this shit known as the 'most embrassing moments in gym'. it was damn hilarious. i couldn't stop laughing after it. enjoy......

I was holidaying in Italy and managed to find a gym near to the hotel. I headed down there on the first day hoping to get a decent leg workout done before returning to the resort to work on my tan. I was hoping to impress the locals lifting their puny weights by maxing out on some squats - I can max out on about 600 lbs for 2-3 reps.
Anyway after a quick, light, warmup I rack up the bar, using pretty much every plate in the pathetic joint and get ready. On the way in to the place I noticed the toilet was disgusting and so the fact I was desperate for a shit was going to be something I would have to put up with because I wasn't about to sit on a seat covered in piss. Anyway I sat into a deep squat noticing how heavy the weight felt. I started to think if my conversion from pounds to kilos had been right.
Maybe I was trying to squat more weight than I ever had before without even a proper warmup or spotter. I tried to get back up to the top but it wasn't happening. The situation was getting bad, I realised I was on the point of soiling my pants! I'm talking literally touching cloth. Some locals saw me and despite their smug looks they knew they had to help me and started to walk over. I couldnt stand their smug looks and gave it one last push to get back to standing. It was working! I was getting up. Once I got up I realized I had done an almighty poo in my pants. Wearing loose boxer shorts at the time meant it was straight out and down my leg and onto the floor! I stood there with ultimate embarrassment as the locals had just reached me as I had pushed up and now were staring down at the slimy horrible turd that had just slipped out.
I ran out of that gym as quick as I could, leaving it on the floor for them all to enjoy.
- Chris Roberts

February, 13th, 2005 Sunday(11:57pm....)

Screw Everything Else

The unmotivated. The weak. The ones that always have an excuse for why they have not yet reached their goals. You know the type of person I’m talking about. The “could have been”, the “should have been”, the “almost was something” type. Are you one of them? Or do you grab your dreams by the balls, take control of what you want, and go after it? Do you have the heart, determination, drive, persistence, perseverance, and that animal lust for that which will undeniably be yours one day? Do you want to be big? Strong? Can you muster up enough drive and ambition every time you are in the gym to give your all? Can you mentally say screw the world and everything in it cuz all that exists right now is this weight I am about to move, no matter what?

Be real. Don’t be fake. Be smart. Don’t waste your time. Find that spark inside you and make it the biggest fucking fire around. Let it burn out of control. Take control of your destination and never give it up. Stop making excuses. Make it work. All the pleasures in life cannot compare to living your dream. If you dream of being big, strong, lifting heavy, looking at your best, then go do it. Get off your ass. The only thing that I fear is the thought that one day I may not have a dream, so I will not let this one go until I get all that I want. Take it. Torch the gym. Bring out the animal. Screw everything else.

February, 11th, 2005 Friday(11:20pm....)

Me, my life, and the weights

Everyday, you wake up. Walk into the bathroom. Look in the mirror. What do you see? I see another chance, another 24 hours to get things right in life, another chance to win the day, another chance to win myself. So there you have it… 24 chances with every new day. Its a gift. Stop stalling. Stop complaining. Stop whinning. Stop being a bitch. It never gets any easier.

Each day in that sacred mirrored room that smell of iron, steel and rust, the weight never magically gets lighter. The damn cardio never gets easier. Dieting never gets fun and you will never be big enough.

That's not the point. Those are all good things. That's what makes life so special. If it was easy, what would make it special? That's the reason you carry yourself as a warrior, a fighter.

You have pride because "glory belongs to the one who runs when there is no race". Your time is this minute, this day, this week, this whole life. So, keep running even if there is no race. THE CLOCK IS TICKING. STAND UP NOW. ATTACK NOW. DESTROY NOW.

February, 11th, 2005 Friday(1:42am....)

yo. its the second , no, third day of the lunar neu year man. and neu year was fun man. felt more like neu year this time cos i caught the fireworks at esplanade. was awesome. felt a little bit sad cos my sis isn't home for the neu year man. she's over at melbourne. kinda missed her. food was good, ate tons of seafood. not much of the neu year goodies cos i think i'm still watching over my diet. don't wanna be mr michellin after the neu year man. gotta cut carbs futher next week and up protein to 1.2g per bodypound. some serious dieting for the next 2months i think. really wanna cut up man. tomoro's gonna be another holiday for me cos the company isn't going to open till next monday. argh, boring working again next week. i definately need to switch job, definately....