April, 29th, 2006 Saturday

Its a thursday evening after a day of tiring work and I was pumpin out reps after reps of dumbell curls with 20kg dumbells and sweat was literally drippin off my arms and face. I've never felt better. I've never felt closer to high. The pump and cramps you get after the sets were insane. My friend stared at me in disbelief.

" Nabeh, you getting bigger again...you look bigger than before..", and I replied, " No lah, same what, just the lactic acid rush that creates the pump..." and he goes, " I think if you were to die, I can feed your corpse to those famine countries and I think the village can eat you for a week...", and I went, " KNN...I shaft the barbell up your ass if you don't stop your crap...".

After the ass busting sets, I took and closer look at myself...hey, I did grew...thats why even the instructor there commented I looked like I'm on roids. But hey, thanks for asking, I don't need roids. Roids are for the weak.

My day ended, and I left the gym with sweat on the bench, stares from gymmers, and a pair of pumped, sore and totally useless shoulders and arms....

April, 23rd, 2006 Sunday

The ninety-nines and the one

Those ninety-nines... That’s what I call ‘them. Always, ninety-nine out of a hundred people can’t fathom what I do. They just couldn't get that shit in their brain. They scratch their heads, can’t believe my kind of dedication to the things I do. Many don’t even think I have a life. I mean, what the F? But I don't blame them. I've learnt to understand them.
This is what I have chosen. This is the road I’ve taken, with all the potholes, bumps, and turns. The ninety-nines, they can’t commit 100% to being their best, to step up one day and stand tall among the greats. But by defining these ninety-nines, I found the one. The one that could understand and bother to listen. And I believe that the one I've found will provide me with the strength to do whatever I'm doing and do better.

April, 16th, 2006 Sunday

Its a sunday, and i guess it isn't that sunny afterall. its pouring like mad outside now. heaven sorta knew how i felt, and feel the same as i do, i guess.... still thinking it must have been a real bad dream, but, here i stand, right in the face of reality and i gotta be 10times stronger than i used to be, i guess...

But just maybe, this is the path i have to go through in my life, and there might be more obstacles and heartbreaks to come, i don't know... but if the guy up there wants me to go through all these because he thinks i should, i'll say, : 'so be it'. and maybe, : 'bring it on' or just maybe one day when i had enough, : 'screw you'.
running through the songs i had in my machine, i came across and played the number by Tony Rich, its called Nobody Knows. and it blends so well with how i feel and the rain outside the window now.... it goes something like...

I carry a smile when I'm broken in two
Now I'm nobody without someone like you
I'm tremblin' inside, and nobody knows it but me
I lie awake, its a quarter past three
I'm screamin' at night
As if I thought you'd hear me
My heart is callin' you
And nobody knows it but me
How blue can I get
You could ask my heart
But like a jigsaw puzzle its been torn all apart
A million words couldn't say just how I feel
A million years from now you know I'll be lovin' you still
The nights are lonely
The days are so sad
And I just keep thinkin' about
The love that we had
And I'm missin' you
And nobody knows it but me......

April ,15th, 2006 Saturday (2:04am...)

就让我忘记, 再回到过去...欺骗自己比较容易....
我好想醉身海, 里远离风风雨雨...拔掉我心上所有呼吸....
怎知我情深似海, 全都是泪来灌溉...困陷在感情深渊不能醒来....
原本应该的完美, 就差那么一点点...我所爱的居然让我流泪....
你教我怎么相信昨天存在...
背着我满腔苦水...珍惜, 真心, 还不是一滩泪水....
我的爱怎会如此苦味...眼前的路竟如此漆黑...
寒风吹散了最后的枯叶, 心都碎....
连爱你都不会纠缠苦追, 一场大雨下得, 下得都不退....

April, 1st, 2006 Saturday

This was another awesome evening spent with my ex-colleagues from TRIMECH. TRIMECH really sucked, but these guys were fantastic people. its been awhile since we had dinner together. went for a buffet at a kopitiam in AMK, food there were rather good. we ate till we almost puke.... afterwhich we went to villa bali to chill. i quite like the ambience there and the crowd wasn't rowdy. had some red wine and we chilled till the clock strikes 12.

coolest bunch of freaks

March, 31st, 2006 Friday

This is one of the coolest way to end a week at work. had dinner with my colleagues at maxwell hawker center and followed by a round of throat busting karaoke session! we sang none stop! even when we felt sleepy, we just kept on going! amazing isn't it?!? what else more can you ask for when you have a bunch of incredibly cool colleagues(of course i'm the coolest one around) around you?

coolest colleagues on ktv rampage

March, 25th, 2006 Saturday

THE ULTIMATE DREAM TEAM!!!

YOU CAN COUNT ON US!

WE WILL BE THE ONLY ONES

LEFT TO SAVE THE PLANET

WHEN GODZILLA ATTACKS!