July, 31st, 2004 Saturday(9:23am....)

woke up way too early today... feeling the burning sensation allover my body.. musting be the stacking of TRIBEX & NITRIX at work again...
was too busy, too tired to blog the past week, everyday at work sucks, project after project i finished, project after project come again.. blew my top twice in office this week, they took me for granted, thinking i'm a too nice guy and they could bully me? BIG MISTAKE! Jerry could be a very nice guy when he is treated the same way, he would everyday node his head and smile at you, but when you fucking get over his limit, he'll just tear your fuckiing ass apart! get it? don't push your luck with me, you won't want to! these unfortunate mudder fuggers learned their lesson the hard way, so be it, they jolly well deserve it for treating me like a pile of shit!
heard that the bonus this time round isn't as attractive as before, those who got their appraisal turn into zombie... the rest like me would just have to wait, fuck! must they do this?
awesome awesome week of training, put on another kilogram of muscle, my shoulders, pecs, back, arms and legs are growing well! pumped from day till nite and day again! NITRIX is really a fucking good shit! getting 1-AD next next with george and kenneth, just couldn't wait to get it and train to see results!! haha... I'm an Iron FreaK!

July, 24th, 2004 Saturday(1:28pm....)

Every time some newbie skinny guys comes up to me with a question, I am reminded of when I first started training. Yeah, I read the magazines and tried hard to differentiate between the real info and the bullshit. I was young and didn't know shit from shinola. I remember reading some stuff from the so-called "big boys" of the sport. I can't fully explain my frustration with their attitudes. When they wrote, their condescending tone was enough to make me want to fuckin' smash something.These guys acted like if you couldn't spend 40 hours in the gym each week, get 10 hours of sleep every night (plus a 3 hour nap in the daytime), then you would never amount to anything. The question I had, as many of you probably do, is how do I work? Who pays for all this shit? How do I possibly support the lifestyle of a lazy bum, as they described? The conclusion I soon came to was as follows: You fuckin' don't. You don't get to float around acting like a pro when you're not. You don't have to sleep 100 hours a week and take daytime naps and not work and forget about your family.What you do have to do is start taking your workouts seriously and set serious goals for the immediate as well as the long term future. You also have to do something most people can't do: Think for yourself. Don't be led by one-hit, flash-in-the-pan superstars. In this sport, most bodybuilders are a legend in their own minds. Divorce yourself from the idea that there is an easy way to step into this arena. 99% of this life is what you make of it, so if your life sucks, you suck... Resist the temptation to quit or make excuses and don't stand on the shoulders of others to shape your image or your body.My point is simply this: If you want something so bad that you would sell your soul, then there isn't one thing that will stop you... Never believe that the circumstances of your life dictate that you can't become a huge, rampaging, fucking beast. Instead, use the situation you're in to motivate yourself to become an Animal. Train like someone is gonna' kill you if you fail. Remember, all we have is what we do in this life... if you're doing nothing, then you're just waiting to die.

July, 24th, 2004 Saturday(1:08am...)

Yippeee!!!!!!!!!!!! its weekend again da....
fucking crazy busy day at work yesterday man.... rushed out 3 new designs in 4hrs again... that mudder fuugging sales bitch...argghh... really really want to fucking smash his face!!! took me for granted... one fine day he'll get it from me.. be damn sure.. no doubt abt it... i'm going to 'repay his kindness' towards me...
ask me to go back to office on saturday to rush his projects?? I tell him to go fly kite with his grandma! nobody knows how to draft out those shit except me...hahaha... piss me off and i'll fucking quit and you'll find yourself another engineer to design for you... hahaha.. i'm the 'king' man....
today's arms days was crazy as well...sweat loads in da gym... tried the california press.. well... not too bad.. but i prefered the original skull crusher and close grip bench...
my tris are popping now...man it hurts...
my bis are very very pumped now... i think they're going to explode... really hope that this would really help in adding another inch on my arms...going to zzzzzzzzzzzz now... fucking tired...............
pity those who get in the way of  the iron warrior... is there no one else?!?!?!

July, 21st, 2004 Wednesday(10:42pm...)

helluva busy this past few days... stupid designs just can't finish... abit low batt in office too...
my colleague just 'how lian' to me before knocking off that due to his work commitment and numerous major projects he handle, he'll get a pay rise from 1.9k to 3K??? fuck, i mean how the hell is it possible??? yes, after 5mins of shock, i slapped my own forehead, remembering that one of my boss is his cousin... fuck him, work for more than a decade and can 'how lian' to me he earning 3k, if i were to work 10yrs to get 3K, i would rather become a drug smuggler.... gimme a break and fuck off pleassseeee....
that signals for the mid year appraisal + increment + bonus.... don't know how would the bloody S.O.B. manager judge me.... work so hard... crack the head... kena all the arrows... just to hope for more money in return, sometimes i find that hard to swallow... but anyhow, we gotta work hard to pursue our dreams... and i believe someday i would be able to live my dreams...
did back at the gym today... 10 sets of 10 of barbell rows again...plus pull ups of 5 sets to failure...aaahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh... my back is tearing!!!!!!!!
tomoro shall be able to finish my project, haiz...whole bloody brain is full of the project crap...just sick...
ah, my favourite shoulders' day falls on tomoro!!hahahaha... may god have mercy on my delts and traps, cos i sure won't.

July, 18th, 2004 Sunday(3:15am...)

Damn... still couldn't sleep...i think its the camomile i had with george just now...shit... felt damn tired but just couldn't fall asleep...
had a good seafood+beef steamboat for dinner tonite..god...me and george just ate like theres no tomoro..i think we injested about 70-80g of protein from the meal alone... and our gut are bursting!! definately not a wise shit to do...
shopped around for a pair of casual shoes at bugis... saw this great pair of shit at beetle bug, but wadda fuck?!? they're left with only the display pair of shoes! no doubt i really like that pair of shoes, but  i decided not to take cos the fact is that i do not know how many jokers had tried the shoes before me!
gotta search somewhere else next week man...or maybe this afternoon!! haha...
10 sets of 10 really really works.. it literally killed my back, both of my lats are still pumped from the workout on wednesday... arms are begining to sore up now...
really must make myself sleep now... gotta squat heavy loads this afternoon....

July, 14th, 2004 Wednesday(12:39pm.....)

What matters in life is what you do. Not how much shit you can talk. Anytime you want to see me at work, look me up in the weight room and I will show you the meaning of pain and transcending limits. You want to beat me, don't miss a meal, because I won't. Don't quit on a set because I'll always be one set ahead of you. Don't walk out of my gym without leaving your guts spilled on the floor because you can bet your ass, I won't.

July, 13th, 2004 Tuesday(11:23pm...)

bloody busy day in the office... wanted to slap the sales manager for being unrealistic in the time frame given, wanted to stab my manager for agreeing with him that it can be done, wanted to give a pat on my own shoulder for completing 4 designs in 4 hrs....bloody hell...
pumped chest for 10 sets of 10 today again, was good, felt the pump from NITRIX day after day, but hell, never really did much of free weights today, triceps are bursting now.....
can see my body improving and getting bigger again... not all credit goes to NITRIX, but also the 6 egg whites, 1 can of tuna, 1litre of milk, 4 protein shakes, fish, chicken i ate every damn day... give myself a pat again... for the hard work in the gym, another pat...
tomoro's back day.... it better be helluva back day... better be...

July, 11th, 2004 Sunday(11:23pm...)

hell, been quite busy with schedules these few dayz... met up with george and koko(its actually kangming, my army-mate. call him koko for a reason, he is'koko' in colour, koko in hokkien means chocolate...)for a dinner over at sizzlers suntec. boy, did we ate! i think me and george finished most of the vegies over at the salad bar... and the steak was...oooohhh...
went to Mr Bean for a coffee and spoke about our jobs... and i found that i'm not alone, my buddies are all pissed by their bosses or managers as well...
did legs at gym this afternoon... the burn and pain was good, but i think i can go deeper in my squats to fry the legs and butt... shall go deeper next week. had dinner over at sis's house and came home...
mum and dad will be back next saturday!!! yayyyyyyyy...
but... whadda fuck!?! tomoro's monday again!!! ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

July, 8th, 2004 Thursday(10:39am.....) No Easy Way Out

Bodybuilding is war. Once you start, you can't back out and say you're sorry. When you enter a war, you plan for invasion. Every piece of the puzzle has a place. You have to assume tactical command and take responsibility for your theater of operations. The competitive life you save may be your own.

Ever wonder why other athletes are passing you by? Maybe it's because you're at a nightclub, shaking your ass to the early hours of the morning. These are the same guys who attack my style of training. These fat fucks whine about how you can only do so many sets for this, and so many for that. As if they know. What divine power came to them and told them all of those secrets? I know when I'm done, if I'm not standing on top, it wasn't out of laziness.

There is no accident. No shortcut. No easy way out. There's only one thing you can't bottle or stick in your ass. It's a work ethic. Blood, guts and hard work are my main tools. Rage and anger is what fuels my intensity. Muhammad Ali once said there is no shame in going down. The only shame is if you don't get back up.

July, 6th, 2004 Tuesday(11:20pm...)

got my NITRIX!! its an Nitric Oxide product that delivers the legendary 'perpetual' pump that make you look and feel rock hard all day long!! i'm refering to the muscles not else where pls...
trained chest with Joel at the gym today.. man, the 10 sets of 10reps really burns... on top of that i finished my chest routine off with the arnold style 'bar to throat' presses. thats it, my pecs are fried!!!
had dinner together at TM and now i'm dead tired... cos after reaching home, i gotta prepare my meals for tomoro, wash the clothes and boil some water... cardio at home eh??
gotta sleep to grow............

July, 6th, 2004 Tuesday(9:15am.....)

Everyone has a vision of what his life should be. It never works out. What you got to do is focus on one thing and make that one thing your life. Make no excuses. Rip yourself apart every single fucking day trying to get it right. Do that and at least you'll be able to look at yourself in the mirror as a man. Maybe I won't win any contests, but I know there's honor in the struggle. When it comes to the struggle, you can't take any prisoners. You got to fight harder than that guy on the other side of the line. You got to train like you got a gun to your head.

Nothing in life worth having comes easy. When the bombs fly and the roof falls down around you, all you can do is hope that your foundation is strong enough to withstand the pressure. All you can pray for is that all your hard work will pay off. That you weren't lazy and didn't overlook something that might have helped you prepare for the battle. All things in life have a purpose and a reason for happening. User every second, every fiber in your body, every last breath to make things happen. Everyone fears death. But I say this: Live proud and fight as hard as you can. If you do, you'll live beyond your time on this earth.

July, 4th, 2004 Sunday(11:19pm....)

every legs session kills... man.. my quads are so sore now even i were to move an inch, it hurts like mad...dead tired...
theres one thing today that really pissed me off! the clown in my gym actually got first place in the 42nd national bodybuilding championship junior catagory! man.. i just couldn't beleive it!
let me explain, the reason i call he and his gang, which consist of 3 person, clowns, becos they do all the impossible weight for them to handle and groan and groan in the gym!!
man, they're so damn egoistic that they'll say aloud" how come ppl watch us train as if we're on steriods?" i'd like to tell him, "boy, you ain't nowhere near a bodybuilder and you know nuts when it comes to roids!"
they just live in their own world. even he won the 1st place, he'll not earn a single respect from me!! not until he does his sets and reps properly and compete in the MAN catagory, and not some fucking UNDER 21, JUNIOR catagories, JUNIOR ARE FOR BOYS NOT MAN!
he is just plain lucky to win it cos he is the biggest in his catagory. if i were to do bodybuilding instead of martial arts in my teens, i'd have tons of trophies sitting at home now!!
imagine, he must have started out big in size, becos his bone structure is tall, long and big and it took him 3 yrs of training?
ME? i was an average joe weighing at 64kgs when i first started, now after 3 hardcore years, i'm 86kgs. not ripped though, but i do carries alot of muscle mass, much more than him!
i still couldn't believe the standard of the junior catagory... thats just sick, just sick.....
if he were to ever compete next year in the MAN's OPEN, i'll be damn sure he doesn't stand a chance...never...

July, 3rd, 2004 Saturday(1:26pm...)

woohoo... collected my powerhouse gym gear this morning! the tee just looked too good on me..man...just too good...hah..sounds like an egomaniac eh??
weekend!! yes! meeting up with georgie and kangming later this evening for dinner and talk cock session....
headr from yaokun that those pathetic bodybuilder wannabes taking part in the 42nd National Bodybuilding Championship are being described as 'scawny'..hahahha.. THEY THEM DAMN WELL DESERVED IT!! they just don't understand a thing about bodybuilding...
to them being fit, or simply haing some ab muscle or pea sized biceps makes them a bodybuilder...C'MON! WAKE THE FUCK UP!! if it was ever so simple, you won't see those big boys that includes me, training like thers no tomoro in the gym, pushing and pulling huge weights... or better still if thats bodybuilding, 45lbs plates won't even exist in the gym...
we won't have to eat 6 high protein meals a day, won't have to drink 5 protein shakes a day, don't have to count the carbs you take in evryday, won't have to take supplements evryday!!
if thats that easy, my grandma could be a bodybuilder too!! damn....

July, 1st, 2004 Thursday(11:43pm....)

start of a new month... hope thats a good month ahead with no hassles, no worries....
yeah..the powerhouse gym bodybuilding gear i bought over the net from US of A has arrived today and was delivered to my house...but...no one were at home to sign over the parcel...so, i gotta go to s'pore post to collect it myself. hmmm...would collect it on sat morning! feels kinda excited!! thought that it would take quite some time... but arrived in 2weeks....
as usual, busy and tired day at office... but seems okay...getting used to it...
triceps days at gym wasn't really good as i tot it would be... maybe i should superset it with biceps instead of hitting them alone..too small of da muscle group to train solely on a single session... biceps day tommorrow, hope it would be as good as the previous week...